good. just got done with work. so about those fire drills this morning...
Drills? lol
I hope to something powerful that they weren't drills!
right. alarms...
anyway... it was a transition to talk about your tweet.
What about it?
was it about me?
Yeah. My first instinct was to make sure that you were safe.
Well, maybe it was my second instinct. The first being to evacuate the building...
right. i thought of you too. but then i didn't see you out there
I was the fourth to last person outside somehow.
I saw you, though.
i was pissed. i couldn't sleep last night and then i finally did and that happened. i didn't know i would be that 'shaken up' by what you said
About the Tweet, or before?
before.
Idk. I realize I didn't give it enough time. I just didn't have enough faith. I don't have enough faith. It feels like it's either too late or too soon. Or both. Or I'm more messed up than I thought I was
i think it's both
You could have convinced me otherwise. But I don't think that's part of your nature. Or you're not certain enough yourself.
i'm not certain jake, but i'm interested enough to try. there is so much pressure on it. i feel like if we try, it's like us saying we're in a relationship, but then i'm just worried i'm going to fuck something up. i want to try, but i also don't want that much pressure. it's unlike dating anyone else. there are strings with you. everything has to be cautious
Not really. I only have one expectation. Maybe two.
well you know that i look into things and freak out about things.
Aujourd'hui
I kept wanting to ask you why all the boundaries and such were necessary. Sometimes I think it's better to just let things happen naturally. If we had passion or chemistry, why hamper it?
It doesn't matter at this point, though. No use dwelling on it.
i dwell when i think that something happened that shouldn't have because of mistakes that i made.
Don't think of them as mistakes.
but they are
How many premeditated actions led us to this point? I can only think of one... though I'm looking from an outsider's perspective.
what do you mean?
I don't think you should call anything a mistake unless is was a decision that was thought out. Some things just happen.
i know
well now i know
Isaac est hors-ligne.
Isaac est en ligne.
Regardless of all this, I'm not interested in trying things again any time soon. And I know you don't want to hear/read this, but I don't think we should hang out for awhile.
But I have every intention of being good friends with both of my roommates, so I'm not going to cut you out of my life or anything. We just need time to reset ourselves or something?
i hate seeing two of my best friends being all chummy when i'm not allowed to hang out with you for a while
Well, Eric and I very rarely see each other. And school is starting in the morning... I doubt I'll see Eric much.
That should make it easier. I hope.
well regardless he thinks he knows everything about your life and what happened between you and me.
