November 14, 2010

Zeke

  • Me: Do you need a hug? I'm conveniently located in the library already.
  • Zeke: no. you wouldn't be happy
  • Me: Do I dare ask why?
  • Zeke: i'm not ready for anything, as i made clear by freaking out and realizing why i want to change my major.
  • Me: Okay. Why do you want to change your major? And how would that make me unhappy? Never mind, you don't have to justify anything to me right now. You have more important things to focus on. I'm not going to add stress to your life by trying to make you explain things. I just remember you telling me on Friday that you were ready to start dating, and later how much you really liked me - for the second time. Today is just one day out of SO MANY. You're stressed, and you said you haven't been sleeping well. I'm trying my best not to pressure you into anything, honestly, and if you need to back up a step and regain your perspective, that's fine. The difference between where we are now is that I'm ready, and you're not. If you do truly like me, then we can go as slowly as you want. Just don't push me away. Especially when you're upset and/or stressed. I'm here for you, and I understand. B/c I truly like you and I want the best for you personally, and for both of us together. Even if together is eventually and not now. You don't have to say anything, I just want you to know that you don't have to feel vulnerable until you're good and ready, and I'll try my best to make it worth it. Hang in there. Get to the other side of your struggle and you'll feel phenomenally better. So I'll stop distracting you.